I have recently found out that I was misdiagnosed with depression and my psychiatric team are throwing names of conditions around, trying to come to my diagnosis. They have told me they are pretty certain that I have Borderline Personality Disorder and reading into the condition was like looking in a mirror at myself. I feel very intense emotions, I am impulsive and I feel empty a lot of the time.
People have turned around to me and told me to not let my condition define me but it does define me, and that is okay. You see; because I have struggled for such a large part of my life, when I was going through the stage of self discovery as a teenager this was who I was. I loved deeply and hurt a lot and it hugely effected my identity because if you were to make a huge chart of my life, the symptoms would take up the majority of it. Why would I stand here and say it doesn't define me if it is the center of my whole being? My condition is vehement, debilitating and it can sometimes prove life threatening but believe me, I will never ever give up my battle to live a somewhat normal life. All in all, I have been massively shaped by my mental health condition but if I had the choice to go back and change things, I wouldn't because it really has been my life's greatest teacher.
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